The complete and random thoughts from Jess

So livin on mackinac island is interesting...no cars, plenty of walking oh and no official house yet for me. I am sooo glad tomorrow is my day off!!! Oh and guess what...we're goin to the bar tonight ...maybe i'll meet a guy. Dad wants me to meet a white boy...Shawn downstairs is real cute and guess what...he's goin to the bar too:) WHOO HOO maybe i'll convince him to come dance with me:) Well hope to hear from everyone!! Miss ya all!

Yesterday was the best day I have had at WSU so far...well other than meeting Nick Cannon. I got to see Chris Brown and T-pain perform for our school. I sat outside 3 hours before chris sang and waited for my front row spot on the fence...*alongside a bunch of thirteen year olds lol* It was amazing. And i got Tally Hall's band member JOe to take a picture with me...yeah he might be cute;) I seriously had an amazing time. Hope it gets better as time progresses! 4 more days til my birthday...Halli said she's gettin me a stripper...hahaha I would die:)

So this weekend was AWESOME! Steph and I got trashed at a Que Frat After party. the party didnt' start until 2:30, it was OUT of CONTROL~ I have not had that many guys want to dance with me EVER! I had a blast! I cant' wait to go back to more...:)

Well i have officially decided to work on mackinac island this summer and go back to wayne state next fall..i believe if i want it that bad then i can and will find a way for it to succeed! Hopefully all goes according to plan..sorry manda i won't be there for the wedding..but u know i still love you guys!

So I have pretty much made up my mind about what I want to do next year. I am either goin to Ferris or Baker. I really need a summer job. So far 2 places on Mackinac Island have called me to work there for the summer. But if I work there I won't be able to make a lot of money, where as if I work at home I can try for 2 jobs and save a LOT of money( and maybe buy a new car:)). Nicole Meyer emailed me after i told her about my idea to go to Ferris and she said we should get an apartment together. It's definitely a good idea...as long as i have a job to pay for rent. My roommate Steph is so mad at me for not coming back to wayne. I"m like don't be mad at me be mad at WSU and Fafsa, i got crap for money. She's like well work 2 jobs all summer and don't spend a penny of it and you can be fine..i'm like i don't think it'll work out that way cuz i need a car for one, and I want a laptop (my computer is a piece!) Well its confusing....i don't know...AHHHHHHH

Ok so being in Detroit is AWESOME! I love it here...lots of cool people, fun things to do, but there is a downfall, i am broke, owe 2000 bucks plus 1200 to Anne's boyfriend for helping me out last semester, and risk being kicked out AGAIN....I'm thinkin about moving back home and living with my parents...not sure which one yet * mom is ok again..or seems that way...i visited her this past week* and possibly commuting to ferris...something i said i would never do, but I need to have a full time job and go to school, and being down here is hard..it took me 5 hours to get home for break and 4 1/2 to get back down...its ridiculus. I actually liked being home, even though i was kinda bored, it was nice, slower paced but nice. I dont' know...someone HELP!!!! I need advice....ugh.

So today it hit me that i'm a little homesick..and by a little i mean A LOT! My car completely died on me today and for the first time in my life when i call daddy he can't come running here to save me. I seriously hate this. I want my dad to come fix it and make it better, but deep down i know he can't and this is a part of me growing up, but right now i don't want to be a grown up, i want to cry and throw a temper tantrum like a 5 year old kid, which we all know won't solve anything. The sucky part is spring break is in a week and i have no idea how i'm about to get home....UGH>...well gotta go get ready to work out.

Well i haven't wrote a real entry in a while..its been pretty boring here at WSU....Let's see...I am doing a lot better this semseter than last semester! All A's:) no e's like last marking:(. Oh and guess who i've been talk to lately, my mom...she gets out of rehab soon and wants me to visit. I am a little apprehensive about our relationship being good again, cuz we've been through a lot, but I'm willing to actually work on it, as long as she works on it too. Oh which reminds me my dad is actually marrying patty next summer.....eeeekkk..i was like so am i going to be invited to the wedding. Marie should be having her baby shower soon, wonder if i'll be invited to that one too. Speaking of baby's, remember how i lived with amy and ann over hte summer and how ann was pregnant, well amy is too! Good thing i got out of that mess:). Well just thought i'd update you all:) I have to go shower, we're going to the Heidleberg projects in about an hour *They are these houses in a poor neighborhood that some guy decorated really crazily to keep crime and drugs out of the neighborhood! It's a little creepy@

1. Initials?
JLW

2. Someone with the same birthday as you?
Emily and Andy S. but they are a few years older.

3. Favorite food?
hmmmmm......cheeseburgers, pizza, lasagna, food in general is good:)

4. For or against same sex marriage?
If it doesn't affect me it doesn't concern me

5. Are you homophobic?
nope

6. Do you still watch cartoons on Saturday mornings?
not lately

7. Do you believe in God?
YES

8. How many U.S states have you been to?
nine like driving through or waited in airports

9. How many of the U.S states have you lived in?
ONE!

10. Have you ever lived outside the U.S?
NO but i have visited places!

11. Name something you like physically about yourself:
EYES

12. Something non-physical you like about yourself:
ummmmmm.......i have no idea

13. What is your dads name?
Jim

14. What is your dream car?
Lime Green Volkswagon beetle

15. If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go?
Italy or Ireland

16. Favorite type of food?
ANY~!! Chinese sounds real good right now though

17. Favorite holiday?
Christmas was but this year it just seemed like another day being away from home...easter usually means birthday time soon! so i guess i'll go with that

18. Do you download music?
Not on campus i dont want a fine

19. How many illegal things have you done?
prolly a few...like drink or drive before i had my liscense..nothing serious

20. Where was your first date?
....my first date...hmmm...Mcdonalds with Derek and his mom and bro and my moms and bros...no wait...PROM with Chris Regan the day after my bday but it wasn't a date date.
21. Would you date the person who posted this before you?
No ( no offense nicole)

22. Has anyone ever sang or played for you?
not that i know of

23. Have you ever cried for no reason?
Yeah i'm a girl i have my moments

24. Do you like President Bush?
No comment

25. Have you ever bungee jumped?
Nope too chicken

26. Have you ever white-water rafted?
Nope but my little bro has

27. Has anyone ten years older than you ever hit on you?
Well not ten years but a few guys around 6-8 years have

28. Last person you hugged?
Krissy at our pom performance

29. Have you met a real redneck?
HELL YEAH

30. How is the weather right now?
kinda chilly..it snowed earlier today

31. What song are you listening to right now?
My roomate's voice

32. What is your current favorite song?
Everything i like lately....but the Tierra Mari song I ain't had no daddy is one of fave's to sing.

33. What was the last movie you watched?
The Goonies!

34. Do you wear contacts?
Nope

35. Where was the last place you went besides your house?
CVS just like 10 minutes ago

36. What are you afraid of the most?
Dying without ever being truly loved by that special guy and getting married and having a family

37. Have you ever hit on someone of the opposite sex?
duh i'm a flirt not gonna lie

38. Any pets?
NOPE

39. Have you ever loved someone?
Not really i mean i love my friends but thats the extent of it i thought i loved them but it wasn't real

40. What do you notice about the opposite sex?
Eyes and personality

41. What do you usually order from Starbucks?
A chocolate chip cookie and a tall double chocolate chip frappachino:) atleast 2 times a week!

42. Have you ever fired a gun?
No

43. Are you missing someone?
Yea my family

44. Say something totally random about yourself:
I'm a dumb girl sometimes and cry for the most random reasons...like my roomie just made me cry over something that was dorky

45. Do you have an iPod?
Nope don't care for one really either

46. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
No but someone said i sounded like one sorta

47. Whats your mom's name?
Connie

48. Who would you like to see right now?
Family and my friends

49. Are you comfortable with your height?
I am pretty tall but its ok..til the guys are shorter

50. Dogs or cats?
dogs ...allergic to cats

51. Have you ever been caught doing something you weren't supossed to be doing?
No not realy

52. Favorite flower?
Carnations or Lilly's or ROSES!

53. Butter, plain, kettle,or salted popcorn?
Kettle, butter/salted/cheese together

54. What books are you reading?
None since How To Make Love Like a Porn Star

55. Have you ever ridden in a limo?
NO but i want to

56. Has anyone you were close to passed away?
Yeah

57. Do you watch MTV?
Yeah every day!

58. What's something that really annoys you?
Lots of little things

59. What are some things you really like?
My friends..DETROIT!

60. Do you like Michael Jackson?
When he was little he was ok like music wise but thats IT

61. Can you dance?
Nope i'm white..but i'm gettin a little better;)

62. Favorite football team?
NONE

63. Favorite breakfast food?
French Toast, bacon and toast...or Coco wheats!

65. What's the latest you have ever stayed out?
Like 9 am * amy and i waited til dustin got out of work and we all went into town and got BK!

66. When was the last time you went bowling?
July with Nick, Darrin and Emily

67. Were you ever rushed by an ambulance into the emergency room?
Nope

68. What would be your favorite state to live in?
I like Michigan but Hawaii would be fuN!

1. What time is it? 1:05 am
2. Full name: Jessica Lynn Weeks
3. Piercing: Belly...left ear 3 times, right ear 4 times
4. What is the most recent movie that you saw in a theater: Harry Potter and the goblet of fire
6. Place of birth:Mt. Clemens, Michigan
7. Favorite Food: Burger King
8. Ever been to Africa: NO
9. Ever been toilet papering rolling: Nope
10 Love someone so much it made you cry: Yes
11. Been in a car accident: Yup but not my fault.
12. Croutons or bacon bits: croutons
13. Favorite day of the week: FRIDAYS! and Saturdays, and SUNDAYS and MONDAYS....i have a four day weekend:)
14. Favorite Restaurant: well the only place i ever eat 3 times a day is the school cafeteria..yuck.
15. Favorite Flower: carnations..they last longer...or lilys
16. Favorite sport to watch: hocky
17. Favorite Drink: Cherry Pepsi
18. Favorite ice cream: Mint Chocolate Chip or cookie dough
19. Disney or Warner Brothers: Disney
20. Favorite fast food restaurant: BK
21. What color is your bedroom carpet: Tile floors....we have a navy blue rug though under mine and my roomies beds
22. How many times have you failed your driver's test? Zero
23. Before this one, from whom did you get your last e-mail: nicole
24. What do you do most often when you are bored: sit online
25. Bedtime: i'm rarely in bed before 12
26. Who will respond to this e-mail the quickest: no clue
27. Who is the person you sent this to that is least likely to respond? don't care i'm bored
28. Who are you the most curious about their responses to this questionnaire? do'nt care i'm bored
29. Favorite TV shows: OC, Wild n' out
30. Last person you went to dinner with: Halli, Nicole, and STephanie....in the cafeteria, but for real food....OLGA's Me, halli, TT, and Steph.
31. Ford or Chevy: CHEVY!
32. What are you listening to right now? Jay Easy's cd...Aka our friend JUAN
33. What are your favorite colors? Pinks and PUrples.
34. How many tattoos do you have: None
35. How many pets do you have? zero:(
36. Which came first the chicken or the egg? egg

OMG GUYS!!! I GOT TO MEET NICK CANNON TODAY! I GOT HIS PICTURE AND AN AUTOGRAPH. I LOVE LIVING IN DETROIT! THE DEAN OF STUDENTS HAD 60 TICKETS FOR THIS EXCLUSIVE EVENT AND LIKE ONLY 30 PEOPLE ACTUALLY SHOWED UP. OK SO I WAITED AROUND FOR LIKE 4 HOURS TO SEE HIM BUT IT WAS WORTH IT...OH AND I ASKED A QUESTION TOO;) EEEEKKKK....WHO KNOWS MAYBE SINCE I'LL BE DOWNTOWN ALL WEEKEND I'LL RUN INTO SOME OTHER FAMOUS PEOPLE;);)

Why do I put so much emphasis on having a boyfriend? I know I have many years ahead of me to find "Mr. Right" but I want him now. I got a little jealous today when I talked to Brian and he said he dated someone for a week. I still care about him greatly and we never talk anymore:(. Then there is Nate. I saw him at the club last night. He gave me a huge hug and held my hand for a minute. I was sooo like wow I do like him. I don't like the fact that I never see him any more cuz all his friends are over in the South hall now:( I'm sad. Anyways. School is going okay. I really like my Italian class. Let's see...i have pom practice at 6 am tomorrow...sadly i didn't practice...but oh well. I'm sure i'm not the only one;) Well i am bored and need to go back to my dorm!

So last night i went out to my cousins cuz we were going to go to a movie...well instead we decided to hit up the frat party:) Well since Tiffany was driving she gave me the ok to drink..haha mistake there:) I know 2 of the guys there really well *Rami and Justin* so we both got in free...and then the fun began! First some guy named Alejandro tried to get us to dance but i was not diggin it...then some Pike Boys *the rival frat* were at the party and started talkin to Tiffany and me. Well Nick *the one i thought was pretty cute;)* Went to FSU for a year and knew where I was from...so we started talking and then a while later in the basement i saw him again and he asked Tiff if she was drinkin adn shes like no and then he was like do you want a beer? So tiff was like go for it..so I got a beer and we started talking...well I finished my beer in like 3 minutes and i was like geeze i'm sad i beat you and ur a big frat guy;) hes like ok hold this hold on. so he handed me his beer and went and got me another one *meanwhile rami started talkin to me and stuff and nick just stayed on the side til rami left. Well when nick returned i bet him that i could finish my beer first and hes like o yeah? So then he was like if you finish yours first i'll even give u a head start, you can have any type of alcohol at my party you and your friends for free. Of course i won't pass up free alcohol so i said deal *even though we're all goign to the club tonight...so then we start drinkin and i lost by just a little bit but he had no other end of the bet so my cousin is like u realize u dind't make ur half of the bet...so hes like well if u don't show up to our party tomorrow then u have to meet me for lunch monday at 3 in the student center. *HELLO This is good for me cuz he knew i wasn't gonna go to his party* So i was like fine but u won't be there i know guys like you..hesl ike no serious..so i got his number if he doesn't show up. so then he wasl ike i wouldn't have asked u if i didn't want to see you again i think you are cute...EEEEKKKK a HOT frat boy said i was cute..oh ok i see the warning sign in that sentance FRAT boy..meaning not always the best types of guys to fall for..but we'lls ee if he actually shows up. O did i mention he works at another best buy too *o and he used to work at Abercrombie and Fitch..tell u what type of guy he is??? lol...so after he left the party i met like 5 more guys..none very exciting but i did dance with rami:) and i got lots of hugs from him and justin and i was DRUNK lol....i actually puked for the first time when i got home...not cuz i drank so much but i smashed a whole large onion ring and sprite in like 4 minutes...that made things BAD...But anyways thats my weekend fun! Hopefully it'll continue til tomorrow *it would go to monday but sadly i have practice at six am and have to get up:)*

I made the pom squad!! 1 out of 14:) I am so excited guys! Then when i went to work my old big boss Janet was like sadly we have to let you go but in two week apply again cuz we liked you and let me kwno when u do so i can tell you what we have availiable:) *so yay i practically still have a job:) the bad thing is i've been in a few arguements the past few nights about things and a lot of people from the 3rd and our floor are moving out of North hall to south hall:( i'm sad. Well gotta find something to do. I'm bored out of my mind.

Poms is kicking my ass. So i went to tryouts *its a three day thing* and day one was yesterday. So we learned a whole routine to the song Suffering by Coheed and Cambria and tonight we're learning a dance to Missy Elliot Lose Control. My ass hurts...my legs hurt...my abs hurt...i just hurt. Good thing the pom part is a lot like cheerleading..only guess what..its actually a LOT harder than i thought...the song is sooooo fast and the moves are RIDICULUS..we literally roll on the floor. and like do drops so i'm waiting to break my arm. Some how i doubt that a lot of the girls there last night will return cuz it was insane how much we learned in an hour and a half and we still have a lot more to go tonight before performing tomorrow...i am going to DIE!!! But i REALLY REALLY REALLY want to make the squad. It would be good for me to have something to do other than the usual partying and studying and working *o wait i'm jobless so this gives me more time to do stuff.* and maybe stop worryin about boys. which takes me into another boy problem. So nate is really cute...we make out lots lately and all...but i know how his friends are *Juan straight up said my roomie steph is "BANGIN" and like they don't settle with girls they only mess around and stuff and Kick it and shit...well i got pissed at him for flirtin with another girl infront of me *or so i thought and then going to a movie with her and her roomie and her boo up in their room and i was like OK what the hell? But he was like we're cool but not like "cool" ok so we're not datin but don't fricken kick it with another girl infront of me...so we talkd and i guess he dind't think anything of her or do anything and shit and he likes me *halli said he said he didn't* its a mess....i don't know i mean i REALLY like brian still and want to date him again but like i know timings off...and not working togehter means now we NEVER see each other and talk maybe once or twice a week for a minute or two. But i am attracted to nate and all but i know it won't really work. Why can't i just know who i'm going to be with and be happy????? AHHHHHHH!!!!!!

So i had an okay weekend. Friday we went to Sigma Pi and i got stuck as DD. Emily came to visit me though so it was totally worth it. Nate and I chilled most of the weekend too. So Saturday Ieshia, Quesha,Alesha, Halli, Me, Cat, Calvin, Rachel, her bf Wayne, and some others from the third floor went to Altered State. It was a blast. Halli and I were the only white girls and tryed to keep up with the other girls dancing...hahhaha it didnt' happen. they told us they'll teach us how to dance next weekend. Last night steph's family had us over for dinner and then her 13 yr. old brother came back and spent the night here with us. Since i became sick *puking, headache, no voice, chills* we just watched movies in our room. Love and Basketball is a really good movie..i wish i would have seen it before last night. Since its MLK day we don't have school and everyone plans on chillin:)

So last night emily came down to detroit to see ME:) i was happy. We went out to the Sigma pi party...oh but did i mention i was d.d. cuz somethings got screwed around and i was just a little pissed off. So when we got back em and i and kat went to get some burger king...yum. and then steph called me cuz Nate was looking for me * ok yeah a new guy...his cousin lives on the third floor and hes ALWAYS here....so we have became make out buddies i guess...*that is ALL he is getting..and it's weird cuz like i don't knwo waht to think about the whole relationship status thing ...its not gonna make me contemplate it too much:) But anyways. So far so good with my classes!! I love my Italian class...e molto buono. :) Oh and i'm joining the Pom pon squad hopefully i make the cut for tryouts:) It should be a lot of fun. Especially since i am currently unemployed again:(:( better start searching for that job again.

Well break has been interesting. I am in Grand Rapids right now with my two best friends from high school Meg and Em. I saw Lissa and Nicole, Morris and Wendy, and Nick at chinese food yesterday and then afterwards emily and i decided to go visit megan since the weather wasn't that bad. We went shopping and had TGIFridays. Good times.
Not so good news~ Brian and i aren't dating anymore. That was short lived. He called me when i was sitting on megs bed. He just wants to be friends cuz he's going through a tough time with things in his life. I guess i understand that and i do respect it. I actually cried which really really shocked me. The girls were comforting me. We ended up gettin me a pint of ben and Jerry's ice cream and i ate it all in five minutes * emily said in twenty bites. I guess good thing was he did it yesterday cuz starting today i'm on a diet. It will be a little weird at work but i told him we'd still be friends. he is still a cool guy. Well maybe someday i'll find prince charming...maybe if i stop looking so hard i'll find him faster:)

Ok so things are a lot better. Last night my drawer was perfect so no more write ups:) That made me feel better. I didn't get to go out with Brian, but it was ok cuz i got to catch up on my sleep. I seriously went to bed at like 10 and woke up only once to talk to Brian around 12:30 and then went right back to sleep til work called to ask if i'd come in at 3 instead of 11...duh more sleep for me...lol. Let's see. I really like Brian...he is a great guy...we went to the movies the other night and saw Harry Potter and The Goblet of Fire:) It was fun! *oh and guys i made it through the whole theater with out making out with him aren't ya proud?? Lol. It is weird going slow for once in a relationship...its like i'm happy that we're taking it slow but in the same sense i want it to become serious. Slowly but surely i guess. Dad may not approve of it but he can't judge Brian at all...I'm sure a lot of people in Cadillac would have a problem but thats too bad for them for being so ignorant. I like him so that's all that matters!!!
I registered for classes yesterday too:) I have a good schedule. I'm only taking 12 credit hours again...I have no monday OR friday classes:):)and Wednesday i have only one hour of Italian from 11:40-12:30. I'm takin Italian, History and AMerican Government:) I'm excited. Even though i have classes on two days i'm out by 3 tuesday and 4 thursday which isnt' bad at all. This also gives me more time to do homework/work/ and just maybe go home a little more:) :) i really need to start lookin for another job....but i don't know if i'll be at best buy long cuz of the whole stupid write ups:( Oh well i guess. Well i Gotta go to work!! Can't Be late!

Ok so life sucked today. One good thing. i had ice cream! and a lot of it:) But yea at work i got wrote up 2 times in the past 2 days...my drawer was off by a lot of money and i can't figure out why. I can't figure out things. then i told m ydad about me hangin out with brian and i bet u can all figure out what he said..yeah he wasn't happy its bull shit! I AM ABOUT TO CRY~